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Apr. 10th, 2013 03:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grimorieI've been feeling like a ball of rage more and more recently. It's just really, really hard being the not so prosperous side of my rich relations and have to owe them each and every time even though we, I try not to.
It keeps happening that we do. And its not like we're not aware. It's why I try not to join any more family outings because I try not to owe them anything. But they go ahead and volunteer us.
We never volunteered to join the cruise. But they insist the whole family join the cruised, my dad can't afford us. My current job, which is working in the family business doesn't pay much (I took the job because my mom was sick and not she's gone I'm trying to find jobs outside of the family business but because I haven't been working in the industry I really want I've been playing catch up).
So the family said they would pay for us and that was that. Except right now they're dropping hints about this only being a one time thing and how they first went to a cruise via their own money.
Wow. Okay. First of all, even though I wanted to I dropped the idea of going with them because I know we can't afford going, even said I wouldn't be able to go. I wasn't feeling bitter about that but NO they insisted and amongst themselves discussed how we could go and decided to pay for us and telling us after.
Second: My siblings and I already decided to earn enough so we can, if we're fortunate, treat our dad and go to a cruise. We don't need to be passive aggressively told that. JFC. I didn't want to use your money in the first place.
Its so difficult living in the mercy and 'charity' of other people. I didn't want it in the first place but they're forcing it on us and just... It is not something I want hanging over me for the rest of my life.
It keeps happening that we do. And its not like we're not aware. It's why I try not to join any more family outings because I try not to owe them anything. But they go ahead and volunteer us.
We never volunteered to join the cruise. But they insist the whole family join the cruised, my dad can't afford us. My current job, which is working in the family business doesn't pay much (I took the job because my mom was sick and not she's gone I'm trying to find jobs outside of the family business but because I haven't been working in the industry I really want I've been playing catch up).
So the family said they would pay for us and that was that. Except right now they're dropping hints about this only being a one time thing and how they first went to a cruise via their own money.
Wow. Okay. First of all, even though I wanted to I dropped the idea of going with them because I know we can't afford going, even said I wouldn't be able to go. I wasn't feeling bitter about that but NO they insisted and amongst themselves discussed how we could go and decided to pay for us and telling us after.
Second: My siblings and I already decided to earn enough so we can, if we're fortunate, treat our dad and go to a cruise. We don't need to be passive aggressively told that. JFC. I didn't want to use your money in the first place.
Its so difficult living in the mercy and 'charity' of other people. I didn't want it in the first place but they're forcing it on us and just... It is not something I want hanging over me for the rest of my life.
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Date: 2013-04-10 05:15 pm (UTC)I hope something about the situation improves soon.
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Date: 2013-04-11 09:03 am (UTC)